2010- The New Decade

Welcome.

Just a quick one to welcome in 2010 and its eternal snow *thumbs down*

New Decades are just a little more fascinating than new years and I was drawn to thinking about the potential this one holds and the scary truths that hang in the air. It's so bad.. but I couldn't help think about how this is the decade where I reach my life expectancy.. what a strange feeling. At the beginning of the last one I thought nothing like this. I was 17 with lung function in the high 70's, low 80's.. where I'd coasted all my life. I had no knowledge of admissions or friends with CF, or LOSING friends to CF. My mind was stuck on frustration at being single, worry at being painfully shy and heading off to a university full of new people (well, technically one year later), balancing part time work and school... nothing else. SO much can change in 10 years. I love who I am today versus who I was then. I can imagine growing so so much more in another ten years to a point that would be exciting to feel. I love the changes that come from experiences.. I'm just so terrified of the ones that will come from CF. Regardless, I don't regret thinking about this all the time. I truly think its worrying about it that keeps me on top of things.. I love seeing all the CF groups on facebook with names like "CF isnt going to win!" and various versions of that. I wish I had the lung function to feel hope and that being a part of those communities could potentially save me from transplant. Regardless, its nice to feel surrounded by people knowing what I'm going through at this point in my life, and I will continue to fight and hope for something unbelievable to happen so that I can soon feel like blowing past 2019 with ease is within reach!