2013

Life is the same. Stable health and I've thus far avoided the nasty flu even without a flu shot. My clinic didn't have any back in the fall and I've failed to fight to get one any other way.

Living in the daylight hours like normal people due to my husbands temporary new job has become very normal and enjoyable. Unfortunately, we found out yesterday that this all ends on April 1st. Once again I'm happy to have forced change in life ahead of us to keep things spicy but I only hope that the spring will have something positive to offer and not just things being taken away from us/him.

About a month ago Clinic called me to tell me I was growing a new bug. Something environmental that was "mild" growth but still it was disconcerting. I planned an immediate appointment with them but they assured me that if I was feeling fine it could wait until after Christmas. I go in about a week and we'll see where I'm at. I'm actually attributing this to my pet mice I bought in October or so. Needless to say this clinic will be one of the more interesting ones.

Other than that nothing much is going on. I'm thrilled to feel confident that I will get through yet another winter unlisted for transplant. I really do hope that when the day comes it will come in any of the 8 months that are not prone to snowstorms. It's hard to believe that when I was assessed I stressfully pleaded to be able to wait to list until my beautiful nephew was born, and he'll be 2 in July!

Speaking of babies, it seems round 2 is starting for my family and friends. Many people are pregnant with their second and I feel like I'm going through the season of mild grief all over again that I can't join them as I continue to travel my newly-entered 30's. It's not as bad as the first time I felt this jealousy, but at the same time its a bit different because of transplant hovering farther from my thoughts in recent months. The illusion that that big hurdle is not in my field of view. Relatedly, although I still experience anxiety from time to time, I find its easier to tackle lately too. Hard proof that its directly related to how sick I perceive myself to be.