Waking up today and doing my usual peruse-the-internet-while-smoking(mask) thing, I remembered my depressing blog post about guilt. I felt like deleting it, though its not any less true today than it was yesterday. Instead, I'm going to go with mentioning my "plan" to get back on track this week in a brand new post.. because if there's one thing I know, its that negative feelings 99.99995% of the time, relate to bad lung phases. If a fairy godmother came and took away my lung issues today, with no consequence, I'm pretty sure I'd be the happiest girl on earth forevermore. That's what I like to think anyways.
So anyways, here's whats going to happen today. I'm gonna get my o2 on, that I never ever wear anymore, and I'm going to do some exercises. Some minor stretching/weight lifting and then I'm going to do some wii. The wii that I intended only for the can't-go-outside winter months. The wii that mysteriously broke on apparently February 26th, 2010 (seriously.. according to the wii fit calendar). The wii both Mike and I each tried halfheartedly, and unsuccessfully to fix a couple times since then. The wii that, on the weekend, during a 10 minute power outage that was attributed to some nearby storm, sprang back to life with gusto when the power returned. If that's not a sign I don't know what is.
And I'm going to book clinic for next week whether they want me or not, whether they are ready with transplant tests or not, and I have a week to get rid of my headaches or else its admission I go.. hopefully to a non-waiting list for beds type of day..
And....... break!
Michelle...
ReplyDeleteJust read your 2 recent blogposts and, although the June 6th one made me sad, I am glad you have a way to vent your feelings. On the up side, I am glad you are back on the WII again WITH the oxygen as, although it may or may not help with the numbers, exercise actually translates into a good feeling and upbeat feeling inside which can get addictive and that is all good! Keep on trucking Michelle, you are one tough cookie! Love you, Momma
You can do it! I have faith. Like I was saying earlier that last blog made me sad but....sometimes you just have to let your feelings flow and get them off your shoulder. Everyone deals with it in different ways:)
ReplyDeleteBtw I have clinic next week too!