Two weeks feels too long to be away from the blog, and yet, its never good to force it on account of feelings of obligation. My husband had the past week off, so we've spent some time away, as well as I've had less time "to kill". I'll never learn my lesson though it seems. Away means less hunching over my computer, and therefore less back and neck pain. It means more exercise (including hotel swimming! =) ), and therefore more coughing and feeling healthier (if only so very very slightly). I was only officially gone for 2 and a half days, and yet, a virtual search party broke out on facebook when I didn't respond to my private messages. Not something to be proud of, though the caring felt good.
On the upside, I was actually more adherent to taking care of myself while away than when I'm here. Usually its physio that slips while away, but this time, not only did I do it, but I did it MORE. Perhaps because I got freaked out how hard it seemed walking any further than 50 feet on flat ground.. perhaps.. No matter what positive thoughts these sort of experiences bring, I can't help but taste the bitterness of resentment as well during these moments. The injustice that any other 27 year old, or 45 year old for that matter, can sit on the couch for weeks and still be able to go out and walk and jog with relative ease, not losing so much of their functionality. Poisonous thoughts... sigh.. well back to business I guess. Below, a picture of our hotel room.
The key word to what you said about any other 27 year old or 45 year old sitting on the couch and can still go out and walk or jog is definitely RELATIVE ease. If any of us, should I say able bodied non-compromised people sat on the couch and then went for a long walk, WE would still feel it muscularly and probably panting wise, it's just worse for you. However, perseverance for maintenance is key, can't expect endurance without keeping up the pushing past the hard stuff, I can relate only by working up to biking endurance last summer....Keep on pushing, it's worth it.
ReplyDeleteI know many many 27 year olds that can't jog up the street, even more 45 year olds!! Don't let yourself fall into self-pity, it's really bad for us. You are doing well, and better things are coming. I have many friends that had babies this year, and after 8 months of mat-leave are panting up the stairs, certainly no one is jogging.
ReplyDeleteI know it's hard, we have all these same thoughts, but cut them short, and live your life. There is so much ahead.